I'm Feeling Lucky

今日本來心情好差。 四點幾肚痛痛醒， check in 時又話 luggage 不可以帶上飛機， 又嬲老細。 不過， 食飯時羅發票時又中獎！ ：） 雖然只是 RMB 10， 不過心情好返好多。 ：）

依家老细好無聊, 好乞人憎!

好掛著以前個 client... :( 最衰他們無大陸 operation ...

Christianity in China

After going to local churches in Beijing and Xiamen, I don't get why people need to be so hush-hush about the missionary trips or why I still hear stories about underground churches.

To the left is a picture of the church I went to in Xiamen. The building is enormous, and the congregation is at least double that of LGCC. As far as I can tell, their teachings are pretty normal:

• Holy Trinity
• We're all sinners
  
• Jesus Christ is God's only the begotten Son, was born of Virgin Mary, died on the cross for our sins, and resurrected in 3 days
  
• Baptism
• Salvation through faith

The Bamboo Church (ZhuShu Tang) is the other big community. Their website (click here), which can be found easily on all search engines, has lots of resources and is pretty well developed. And, here is a big BBS site in Xiamen.

Is this openness towards Christianity only true in the cities? I just don't get it... Can anyone explain this to me?

What's the Point?

It seems to take me longer and longer to update my blog. There are many times when I would write up a post in my head, but somehow never got around to actually typing it up. All of my managers have told me to work on my work-life balance, but they're the ones who keep dumping impossible amount of work on me. Yes, I should learn to say no and prioritize my work. And, yes, I should learn to work smarter, not harder. All sound good in writing, but it's of course much harder in action - as with everything else in life... I've learned the hard way that I can only run as fast as I can for so long. My body has given me warnings for a long time, but I can feel it giving up on me now. So, damn it, I'm saying no to weekend work and the ridiculous hours. Fire me for all I care.

I'm starting to question if what I'm doing now is really worth all the sacrifices I've made. All in exchange for meager monetary gain and professional accomplishments. There should be a bigger meaning behind all this, right? Reaching the big three-o is a bit scary. I still have some time left, but looking back at my life in the 20's so far, everything is a blur. All I can remember are school, work, wedding, work, work, and some more work.

Getting married was a highlight, but I'm not really sure what married life means. I live on my own for the most part, and I don't see this changing anytime soon in the future. I honestly feel like it's not any different from dating life - minus the little romantic gestures... Is getting married just a way to secure someone to grow old with or a prerequisite for having kids? Or, is it just something everyone else is doing? Don't get me wrong, I love him, and I'm glad to be his wife. I'm just wondering if getting married changed anything. Only seeing each other over the weekend can't be the long-term solution, but I don't know what else can be done. It may work for now, but we're bound to grow apart eventually. I'm not being pessimistic, just realistic.